Getting Stucked II

Interestingly, the first article of "Getting Stucked I" got a lot of responses, from comments, emails, msn, etc.... However, most responses asked me who are that 'one girl' that I was talking about... @_@ The main point of that is actually about the acts and my feeling of unfairness, not about who was that girl.. There are a few things I really really hate in my life. In a word, I really hate people who do what 'they see fits' in relationship. (Recently, I got a friend who broke up with his engaged girl friend and already engaged another girl within half a year.)

Although 'courtship' is not a life time commitment as marriage, I still believe there is some commitments ( or game rules, I use the word 'game' doesn't means treating it playfully, I just mean it's some rules like games of soccer, (American) football, tennis, etc. ) In a courtship, I think the rule is that the 'couple' should not consider others at the moment of dating. It sounds simple? See what I saw in real life, even from so called good Christians (or even 'spiritual' leaders)

I saw someone seducing others even he/she got a bf/gf.
I also saw someone seduce others who got bf/gf.
I saw people changing 'targets' six times in a year...
.... or approaching a few in the same time.

These are real stories and not imagination or exaggeration. In this age, loyalty to your bf/gf is a sin. Self interest is the first thing to be satisfied. Who makes me happy or who is better and I will hop on him/her and leave my current one alone, and sorry, I will not consider others' feeling.

Sorry that I don't mean I am a saint in relationships. I was also not doing good in the past. However, at least I consider others' feeling and refrain from doing anything that may hurt others at my very best. I just feel very unfair when I saw those who do not follow 'principles' or guidelines can be merried and married. I just completely feeling stupid for myself. Maybe I should be a jerk.

For those who are already in a relationship, I urge you to keep your mind clean and be kind to your bf/gf, even though the other party is extremely bad to you. Once you are in a relationship, having the thought of someone else maybe better is a poison, and it's not what God will like. Yes, there maybe some others can help you to glorify God more or help in your godiness. But, sorry, you are already in one relationship and thinking about another girl/boy is a betrayal to your current one, even it's JUST a relationship but not marriage. You may really decide to leave your current one, and WAIT for sometime and then go for the one who is 'better'. Changing your date immediately will hurt your old ones in a way that you cannot imagine (And you will not imagine or don't even care because you already WANT the other one) Once you had this kind of betrayal, I guess you may be subconciously afraid of that the same thing will fire back to you. Insecurity will definitely drive you into insane acts, like premarital sex, pre-mature marriage, etc (taken from books, 'intimate allies', '怎可以一生一世')

"In those days Israel had no king; everyone did as he saw fit." Judges 21:25

What is the time, Mr. Wolf?

Last few days, probably was the time I smiled and laughed most in this year. Our church held the children church camp and I was helping in the kindergarten classes. I thought it's easier because for preschoolers, we stayed in a room, doing crafts and singing songs.

I always enjoy my K1 kids, they are just tooooooooo cute. Luckily they were not my own kids or I would spoil them (although I always boast about how I am going to discipline my kids). This year, it's easier in the sense that we were in a room and did not need to run around. However, taking care of kindergarten kids was more difficult because... they could fly, jump, bite, fight, etc... you name it. The most enjoyable moment for me (later I will tell you when is the most enjoyable moment for the kids) was in the park. We enjoyed the nature on the boardwalk and looked for crabs and fishes along the way. At last, we were playing at the beach, and that's my dream of my life of building sand castle with kids, of course it's better if my future wife was there too...

Everything went well during the day with the kids, although my battery light is always blinking and my voice is lost already. All you need to do with kindergarten kids is to love them and encourage them. Praising some kids who behave very well like sitting very quietly will make others all listening to you. After six pm, they went home and did not stay overnight for the camp. I thought my day was over and I just took it easy for the night with my other kids in primary school.. The real stress came when I returned to my dorm, and discovered that two of my kids crying. One holding the cell phone and weeping, the other was crying outside. They were in primary one and it meant that this was the first time they stayed outside of their home.... in their life! Both of them wanted to go home. This was the second night and the first night I already did my best to put them to bed. When the kids wanted to go home, they WANTED to go home. Nothing could distract them. Finally, I let the kids in other room in and used my remaining voice to organised our secret club, 'stop laughing competition', charade, ... etc. until they really had fun and did not want to go home that much. You know what, then in the mist of crazying playing, some kids hit another one in his head and started crying.... and his mood just went down directly and refused to join any activities later on that night. ARRGGGH

Well, what I learned is, maybe I am like that too. Although I am quite contented in my life, there is ONE only thing I want, and I WANT it. Maybe God is telling me that I am like them also.

The highlight for the kids, is the game of 'what time is it, Mr. Wolf?' at the last day. They enjoyed it very much, and especialy when i got a tail (!!!) . The kids said that I am the most impressive wolf and some youth took the picture of me having the tails and hats on... and I think that's it for my life... noone will be interested in me anymore..... *sob* *sob*.

Well, at the end of the day, I still beleive that I will do it again next year.....

Zoom In, Slow Motion

Recently, I am playing a game called Viewtiful Joe 2. The interesting and unique feature of the game is that you can zoom in and do slow motion of certain stunts. In movies, directors usually use these tricks for the most touching or sentimental moments in a love story, or the coolest finishing blow in the final battle.

Imagine doing a commercial for the BIBLE and capture all these moments.

The first time Adam was made and opened his eyes. The first time he saw Eve. The first time Noah came out of the ark and saw the rainbow. When the red sea was seperated and the Israelite cerebrating and dancing. When Joshua first stepped into the promised land.

When Boaz married Ruth. The first time David looked back and saw Samuel, and later on David fell on his knees and begged for forgiveness after he sinned. When Esther gathered enough couraged and walked in to see the king.

When Jesus was born.

When John the Batpist was beheaded because of his faith. When Jesus saw the multitude and His heart is filled with passion.

When Jesus said "It's finished" on the cross.

When the women discovered the tomb of Jesus was empty and felled down to cry.

When Peter answered Jesus the third time "Lord, you know I love you."

Of course, the story didn't stopped, we still have Paul, Timoty, Stephen, Silas, Peter, etc. You name it.

And, it still goes on. When you are born. The first time you accepted Christ and came back to God's love, and any time that you knee down and pray...

Slow motion, zooming in.. and God smiles.

Getting Stucked I

Just want to write some stupid thing, this is not really like any of my other articles. I just want to grumble.

Life is full of situations when you got stucked. Things happened and then you cannot move in any directions.

When I was young, in high school I mean, I used to like a girl. Well, of course I was totally not attractive and stupid at that time. However, I still want to try and approach the girl. Too bad then the girl is not interested in me... However, what i discovered is because there are a guy flirting around. Impressively people know how to be more than friends, but less than bf/gf even when they are so young. Some people can just keep some ambigous friendships with many opposite sex at the same time. Of course, these guys are usually handsome and attractive and I am not.

These things didn't stop as I grew up... even once, my very own (ex) girl friend was seduced by such flirting guy who got a girl friend himself. Similarly, this guy had this habit of attracting EVERY girl. Especially that was the time in US, all people in our circles are away from home, just graduated from high school and emotionally not mature. I can see girls just fall for these flirting guys in no time.

Moreover, there was another guy, doing these 'attracting' girls thing, and destroying fellowships and creating problems.

They are all Christians.

And I can see , in various degrees, guys have these problem. Even they got a wife.

I cannot stop any of these, but I swear I will not be such flirting jerks.

However, there is where I got stuck. Whenever I feel I like some girls, these hatre for those flirting guys will stop me from anything..

Especially when I know the girl I like, is interested by a brother which sincere admiration. I'd rather hide myself and don't do anything. Well? Isn't it some kind of getting stucked? I was 'crossed' by others before and I do not want to cross anyone.

Faithfully
Written and performed by Eric and Leslie Ludy
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Tonight I saw a shooting star
Made me wonder where you are
For years I have been dreaming of you
And I wonder if you're thinking of me too

In this world of cheap romance
And love that only fades after the dance
They say that I'm a fool to wait for something more
How can I really love someone I've never seen before

But I have longed for true love every day that I have lived
And I know real love is all about learning how to give
So I pray that God will bring you to me
And I pray you'll find me waiting faithfully

CHORUS
Faithfully, I am yours
From now until forever
Faithfully, I will write
Write you a love song with my life
'Cause this kind of love's worth waiting for
No matter how long it takes I am yours

Tonight I saw two lovers kiss
Reminded me of my own lonliness
They say that I'm a fool to keep on praying for you
How's can I give up pleasure for a dream that won't come true

But I will keep believing that God still has a plan
And though I cannot see you now, I know that He can
And someday I will give you all of me
Until I find you, I'll be waiting faithfully